summer project.

god, i love group dynamics. you know when material just makes sense, like it taps into a latent philosophy you never knew you believed in? and suddenly, the stars are aligned, and your whole existance has meaning? there are things you do in life because you feel like you need to, and you go through the motions, and finishing gives you a sense of accomplishment and a gold star. but then there are other things that you do and you don't care if there's no diploma, or ribbon, or amazing salary at the end of line. when people find these things do they take it and run with it? a tiny part of me wants to shrug and say: "oh well." and just think of it fondly as a weekend i spent learning about group dynamics. but, as you can see from my monstrosity of a posting about the conference, doing so would require a lot of denial and acting on my part. i am in love with it. but i think the scary thing, for me, is what do i do with it? where do i go? how do i apply it? what does that mean for me in terms of work and livelihood and career? what would it take to be good at it? i mean, you take the gmats and you do well, you go to business school. you take the lsats and you do well, off you go to law school. what do you do if you rock a group relations conference? what does that even mean? *deep breath* i keep reminding myself: babysteps. you've still got a whole year to figure it out.

anyways, i received a packet from john l. today that has a lot of group relations material that i will happily peruse once finals are over. i decided that my summer project will be to compile an annotated bibliography on group dynamics research and critical theory, and the asian experience in groups. i found an interesting article on filipino identity and how it relates to our experience as an occupied nation. very interesting stuff.

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adil just im'd me. north carolina has been postponed until may 14-17, 2006. but its still happening. wahoo!